Monday, March 29, 2010
Hey I'm Super! Not Just Super-Slim
I was sitting back look at at all the average Hollywood protagonist that they make into super heroes and I feel like they're somewhat stereotyped and unrealistic. Who's to say you have to be 6'3" 220lbs, buff and great skin? I mean if you think about the real life scenarios you don't see too many real heroes and if you do they certainly don't resemble anything like what I previously stated. If I were to see a man jump out in front of a moving vehicle to save a child for instance, it would be a 47yr old balding man who who just got out of work doing his plumbing duties, takes one look at the child in the street and see his own child within them and decides to do something about it. That's a real hero. I mean lets be honest, in reality has anyone ever seen the muscle protruding Bally's Total Dips**t ever running to save the day? Yeah, I didn't think so. I mean hey, I have actually grabbed kids out of the way & pulled someone back from traffic before, but you wouldn't see that type of character in a movie. You would find an individual with my build and stature in comedies or docudramas that ultimately make you fall in love with us out of pity or some sort of "little-guy complex" empathy. This is all well and good, but as much as a buff individual can play those roles, there's a unrealized duality for those individuals like myself who aren't readily identifiable as those who would/could save your life. I was watching 'Zombieland' the other night and this was a movie that puts down your general hero complex in every way possible. The main character with the hero factor was a skinny white guy in his early 20's who wa quite low on the social totem pole before zombie epidemic struck the world. At the end of the movie, he saved the day, got the girl and did it all without a surplus of muscles and overcoming his fear of circus clowns. It seems to me that since it is a movie and it does have to sell it all must be aesthetically pleasing, visuals, physical appearance as well as story line. However, seeing those movies breakout of the average and do what i see as above average is a great time indeed. So I may or may not be "preaching to the crowd" right now but it makes a lot of sense to question what we're being sold, after all we pay for it.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Potentially Permanently Perplexed?
I'm confused, do people who do wrong or enough of it not deserve happiness? I have done my share of wrong and I've done my dirt but do I not deserve the best of things like everyone else. Let directly relate this question to relationships or lack thereof in my life. I have been a player, able to admit my mistake, correct it and move on. I humbly admit that. I'm not proud of it but I am proud to say that i have whole heatedly changed. Since that change which has been well over a year now I've tried my fair share of relationships, serious and committed relationships only to meet failure. Now whether or not these failed relationships were by my doing or not is not my point, my point is this some sort of shi**y Cupid Karma? A players penance? A debt to be paid for the subtle or deep dents that I've left in my past lover's hearts? It just seems like it an on going trend. Without a shadow of a doubt I let go of one person who I loved more with my mind, greatly with my body and much more with my heart. I let her go because I want to see her happy no matter what, and sacrificing my presence was a necessary pain. Now the fact that we're over is something Ive dealt with but I'm just trying to understand if its something that wasn't meant to be or a debt to be paid to the society of hearts and emotions i trampled selfishly. I've prayed for forgiveness, Ive asked for forgiveness and Ive moved on and wished them nothing but the best. But what about me? Its not a selfish question but a reasonable one at best. I am patient, if this is all some grand learning experience so I can be as perfected as much as any ultimately imperfect person can be, then so be it. But if this is the price to pay for all my admitted wrong doings then I shout "NAY!". The price is to high my fellow Internet fiends. The punishment does not match the crime. I know some may think that if you hurt someone than you should be damned by the god Cupid for all eternity but ultimately no one deserves that, and I'm not saying i deserve either way, I'm just curious and wondering. As of right now I wouldn't say I'm guarded but I would say that I'm cautious and aware. I don't fully trust any female in my life right now and with good and KNOWN reason whether they think so or not. I PEEP GAME!! Game recognizes game and I'm SO glad I'm familiar. The energized and fantastic sounds of the possibilities between one another were great in beginning and now seem to be fading in the middle, so are we headed to an inevitable end... most likely. And if so, was it really inevitable, or am I being taxed by a vengeful tyrant of lover's hate? Time will tell, even though I see no mouth on the watches face...
I miss and missed
I miss when the days that ended in "y not"
I miss the soothing chill to a heated day
I miss the mindset of a boy not instead of thinking like a calloused man
I miss texts just saying "I'm thinking about you" instead all the one-worded or unanswered ones I send to your number.
I miss having someone hold me
I miss that one person I could depend on, the application process for this is elaborate and taxing
I miss the friends who have your back, especially the ones not secretly holding the sharp objects you didn't know they possessed
I miss hugs from my father
I miss hugs from my dad
I miss the institution of a relationship
I miss making my bed, now all i do is make a neat pile on my mattress
I miss college, damn do i miss college
I miss my grandma, there's nothing like her anymore, may she continue to rest in peace
I miss my grandpa, wish i knew him better
I miss my grandfather, im glad we were close
I miss Joanne, she was truly one of a kind
I miss my "so-called" best friends, although they proved to be the best at being the worst
I miss my cousins, we all used to be so close, now we're grown and its all a memory it seems
I miss the days where I was the reason you smile, not him
I miss SLEEP. I am in limbo, insomnia haunts me, and I'm trying to get back to my lost love of temporal unconscious vegetation.
I miss 90's Nickelodeon
I miss Sega Genesis, id play it if I could right now real talk
I miss chasing the ice cream truck. Nobody better dare me LOL
I miss the days when i was missed....
I missed the part where it was ok to be a baby daddy
I missed the Simpsons because of Family Guy
I missed your phone call
I missed your phone calls
I missed the days where I never had a worry
I missed the days where I wouldn't have to question
I missed where you could get mad at me for the mistakes of someone else
I missed how that was my problem
I missed going to the movies to see 'The Princess and the Frog', i like kids movies
I missed the playfulness in your voice even though you say its there :-/
I missed you
I missed my mom while she was in the hospital, although i was there with here more than half of the 2 weeks she was there, I missed her spirit, glad she has it back now
I missed the point of the last episode of 'The Sopranos'
Im missing nothing
I miss the soothing chill to a heated day
I miss the mindset of a boy not instead of thinking like a calloused man
I miss texts just saying "I'm thinking about you" instead all the one-worded or unanswered ones I send to your number.
I miss having someone hold me
I miss that one person I could depend on, the application process for this is elaborate and taxing
I miss the friends who have your back, especially the ones not secretly holding the sharp objects you didn't know they possessed
I miss hugs from my father
I miss hugs from my dad
I miss the institution of a relationship
I miss making my bed, now all i do is make a neat pile on my mattress
I miss college, damn do i miss college
I miss my grandma, there's nothing like her anymore, may she continue to rest in peace
I miss my grandpa, wish i knew him better
I miss my grandfather, im glad we were close
I miss Joanne, she was truly one of a kind
I miss my "so-called" best friends, although they proved to be the best at being the worst
I miss my cousins, we all used to be so close, now we're grown and its all a memory it seems
I miss the days where I was the reason you smile, not him
I miss SLEEP. I am in limbo, insomnia haunts me, and I'm trying to get back to my lost love of temporal unconscious vegetation.
I miss 90's Nickelodeon
I miss Sega Genesis, id play it if I could right now real talk
I miss chasing the ice cream truck. Nobody better dare me LOL
I miss the days when i was missed....
I missed the part where it was ok to be a baby daddy
I missed the Simpsons because of Family Guy
I missed your phone call
I missed your phone calls
I missed the days where I never had a worry
I missed the days where I wouldn't have to question
I missed where you could get mad at me for the mistakes of someone else
I missed how that was my problem
I missed going to the movies to see 'The Princess and the Frog', i like kids movies
I missed the playfulness in your voice even though you say its there :-/
I missed you
I missed my mom while she was in the hospital, although i was there with here more than half of the 2 weeks she was there, I missed her spirit, glad she has it back now
I missed the point of the last episode of 'The Sopranos'
Im missing nothing
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