What If?

As I sit here and ponder the ever changing, raging, and staging plan that is my life, I wonder, “When will it all make sense?” When do all of the trips, falls and makeups bring us to that dramatic realization? Does said realization have to be something we reach upon the end of this journey we call life? I seem to always find myself falling. I see myself falling off this grand precipice until I am plunged into a sea of sublime sorrow.  Why do I even approach this precipice? Why do I find myself on a daily basis walking into a “what if” scenario anticipating control? Are we destined to fall?

Destined… A word that in itself says that a path is already written, written before one may even know the meaning of the word. So in fact, we aren’t changing anything that we think can be changed. We’re doing what we always do, awakening for another day under the belief that we create our own destiny yet everything that’s happening and we believe we are making happen is what we are supposed to do. We wake to walk towards that precipice. We awaken to fall. There is no true change if we are always committing the same act. By definition, the act of doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result is insanity. So are we all insane expecting to wake up to a new day of our creation? Have we never known the true perception of reality?

We go into the world trying to make sense and make a way in each and every ever changing day. But perhaps we aren’t making anything. Perhaps we are just unearthing our next steps that are laid under the sands of time. These sands whisk away in every hour and in every “choice” we make. This “choice”, whether right or wrong, is always a choice to be made in the right path of our destiny. You can’t stray from destiny. That very thought has been destined. Think about it: What if you could stray from your destiny? If you could, would you really want to? Would you want to turn from you path that was chosen by a higher power or you’re the equation you’ve been a part of since birth? Your rite; that can be the only thing sculpted into this world or into your network of friends and family. If you could change your rite and what it means to the world for the positive and negative, would you? Do you think you have the ultimate wisdom enough to do so? Would you risk disturbing the lake if at the base of its mass you found a sleeping monster or a subterranean angel in deep slumber? Your destiny is at peace as long as it is not tampered with, as are all things left alone. To tamper with destiny is almost like tampering with something that was never yours as it’s all a part of a scheme of grandeur. A sequence of actions that beget other thoughts/feelings/actions and people… Birth.... What if life did not occur or exist without the course laid by other. What happens when things do not go according to plan? Is there some kind of organization like ‘The Adjustment Bureau’ that swoops in to clean up messes and lay the crooked lines straight? Inconceivable, but yet, it is not impossible. Plausible as farfetched as it may seem.

Your path has been chosen whether you like it or not. There are those who don’t like the idea that their destiny is not in their own hands. But you can never hold, grasp or possess something that can never be seen, such as the soul. Or, can you?