IN, For Good....

Never had a love w/out last on my heart this long
Different lyrics, verses and beats, yet its all the same song
Its been months since a whisper of despair in that voice
Couldn't forget, but id let go if that were my choice
My nature and instinct has conflicted with my actions
This is not a physical or mental but a soul's attraction
Never needed to shape this in any way
The only thing I'd mold is an arrangement to make that luminous half stay
Life's unfair?A selfish and narrow-minded conclusion
To be in complete control of such an intense outcome: a bitter delusion
Soft hands, sweet lips and inside smiles
Forever walking my mind's wishful aisle
Enchanted by the intelligence of a connection not meant for understanding
Returning me to myself, whatever that maybe, is what I am demanding
A man apart, a life apart, a partial part.
I'm not just yearning to make love, but art.
Times change and so does the game
But like my heart and decisions, the more things change, the more they stay the same....

Questions, Questions

Good girls like me, great women loved me
Ive always felt like shit on the inside, so did they really know me?
Do I really know me?
Few are still around, did the others just blow me?
Woe is me
There's never been a cold me
But there is definitely an old me
Who gets no sleep
Who cares deep but acts and reacts recklessly
What did they see in me that I haven't seen?
What did the inevitable endings really mean?
At the end my smile stayed pearly white, but wasn't always clean
Broke the hearts and I can't regret it
Each one of the now mended hearts is better for the better after we decided to dead it
I let one go and still that runs through my mind
As long as I believe it was for the better, it'll be fine
Life is a lesson, I'll learn in time
Maybe I was her lesson in life to learn and get a piece of mind
Just as long as her heart's intact because she still has a piece of mine....