Its time I patch things up. I show and feel such compassion for all others around me, yet I have no idea what to do about myself. Sometimes, when it comes to relationships, intimate as well as friendships, I feel like I am the most immature and naive person I know. Simple things I don't get. Things others see that I don't. Things I hear then acknowledge but don't fully understand until I am in pain or without. And although I may not understand or comprehend it all I am learning. In the midst of my emotional education the mishaps and pains have such an impact to the point where I am left crippled or temporarily impaired.
I am maturing though! My friends see it and my family sees it. I have no loves to view the epic change. I say epic because that's just what it is. Its certainly a big deal considering my immature and past poor decisions. It means a lot to know that this has all been noticed. It would mean more that I would have a more substantial form of progress. Translation: something to show for said progress.
I also have a question: Is maturing forgetting? For instance, let's talk in terms of a deep and intimate past relationship. Of course with any new or current form of any relationship you want to learn something from the other. But when that experience ends and you have to let go of that person, is forgetting maturing? Is simply learning the matured action? I think these are more of opened ended questions if anything. Maybe to each his/her own. All I seem to find out are the depths of my various growing pains.
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